manda the lover passenger of love going round but not getting anywhere Novemeber 3rd
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Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion.
Javan


love is infinite
only you yourself know what to love


good grades for my A levels
a job
makeover
to be happy
for everyone i know to be happy
new handphone

Oooo.. the new year is coming and the old one is slowly fading away into our memories. Let us welcome year 2006 in another 14 mins and wave goodbye to year 2005 and cherish the moments and memories of year 2005.

Manz, I sound like a crazy person. Hahax, talking like this and rambling on and on. This is so sooooooooooo Cliche!! Hmm should stop the cliche-ing liaoz. Just cannot believe that the year 2005 is going by just like this and really there are so many lessons that I have learnt in this year. This year is the year where I realised that best frens stay with u no matter what happens and where we go after the release of the O' level results. This is the year when I also realised that Love comes to you when u least expects it to happen. And somehow the one for you is just probably around the corner and he is just there for you to notice or he will just slip away. This is the year when I have gotten over the crush that I know was really no more that just a fren in every way. This is the year when I find myself and learn that things are not always wad they seem to be and this is the year when I realise that my life is just as beautiful as Spring and just as lovely as anything lovely.. Hees...

Now another 4 more mins till 2006. I hope that come the new year, I will be able to improve on my people person side and be less sceptical of others. Also from 2006 onwards, I will concentrate on my studies and work hard for the A' levels at the end of the year. Also I think I will stop being so easily stressed out and just take things easy and in their stride. - Not to bother too much bout my sisters -

2 more mins to 2006.. Get ready to count down peepz!!

20 more seconds!!....... 10.. 9.. 8.. 7.. 6.. 5.. 4.. 3.. 2.. 1.. 0..!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPZ!!
Smile Always 11:47 PM


-Edited- -addditional too-

Went out with Meizhen and Ting again, this time to buy banner stuff for Media Club recuitment. Met them at Toa Payoh Interchange there but I was late. XD sorry gals. Went around Toa Payoh in its wet rainy weather to scout for bags (4 Meizhen) and cloth for the banner. In the end we managed to find the cloth at some shop that sells curtain. The price of the cloth is rather reasonable compared to the price you get at SpotLIght. However Mz could not find the bag she wanted.

So we headed to Bugis or rather City Hall - Raffles Place; as the platform to transfer to the east-west line was super crowded and the train was super slow. So it was like every 3 mins there will be a fresh crowd adding on to the crowd there already and the train was already crowded liaoz. So we decided to get out of the station and walk Raffles City. Walked and walked on aimlessly there as everything is so expensive and just not us. Half and hour later, Lo and behold, who should I meet there at Raffles City? MR HO!! Manz I totally freaked out lar. Just said hello to him and then I ran off dragging my 2 buddies with me. Heez.. Sorry gals again.

We could not bother to wait for the rain to completely stop before we start our walk to Bugis Junction, so when the rain was not so big, we tried to find our way thru the roads of Singapore to Bugis Junction. Manx.. Again my fault.. I lead them the long way round to Bugis.. Sorry again..

Waddled thru the rain and wet roads and puddles and finally found BUGIS JUNCTION!! hahas.. Went Bugis Street to jalan.. till dinner time. Had dinner at Bugis Junction Food Court. Lolz.. we ordered a super budget meal. Hahaz.. We 3 had jus one bowl of Herbal Soup and 3 bowls of rice to share. Lolz.. the uncle somemore said that the soup can eat onli 2 people. Guess we proved him wrong. Lolz.. Went back after dinner.

So that's it lar.. lolz..
Smile Always 10:36 PM


was fun, though I din really do much work. Was supposed to go to Jensen's place to tutor him but I got hooked on his computer instead since mine was not functioning properly ytd. Onli managed to do some maths problems and luckily he was there if not I think my Permutation and Combination still remain so bad. XD

Hmm but still have so much to complete. Still have Bio, Physics, Maths and GP.. Wonder who has done GP? Stupid I haven even attempt the GP homework. HeCk think later I try to pia....
Smile Always 11:40 AM


These are some pics taken during my Thailand trip!!

B4 entering the departure hall @ Changi Airport


In the departure hall!! sis & me


B4 boarding e plane.. family & all.. Dad behind camera


B4 entering e elephant museum


Cools dudes!! hahaz..


My new home.. yea ritE.. At the little ancient Thailand


Last nite.. dinner on board the GRAND PEARL

Smile Always 6:06 PM


Hmm nutthing to blog. So just changed my blogskins nia. Hope you all like this. Guess it is easier to read and tag too huh? Hahaha.. happy Holidays everyone!!

Ps.. No work down either. GP is still somewhere untouched. Lolz.. Cheers everyone!!
Smile Always 4:47 PM


Lol, am back in Singapore le!! Hahas.. the trip to Thailand, Bangkok was great. Had a super fun time shopping for clothes, shoes, accessories and etc.. SO like that place. It is so friendly and so just nice. In fact I kinda like the attitude of the people there. Somehow, I feel that if Singaporeans are as polite as them Thai, then this would really be a great place to live in.

The things there are super cheap and super nice, especially the handmade crafts and the pet accessories. I love that place. It is really worth going another time.

The fun there is undescribable and hard to put down in words. So I can onli tell u face to face. So I'm not putting it down here.

Just wanna say thanks to Jensen 4 blogging 4 me. And wishing all a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Missed sparky n him
Smile Always 4:57 PM


K ppl am in Bangkok enjoying life now so wont be blogging till the 26th December k?Sorri for e M-I-A..Oh anyways dun stop tagging will reply once am back k?Can start by telling me wad u wan..Maybe Olivia would lyk her whole Bangkok again..Hees..K tink i better sign off b4 someone comes back and puts my head on a stick..

Signed:Jensen

Muahahahahaha...Dotz..
Smile Always 6:45 PM


Hmm tomorrow I will be on a flight to Thailand. Hmm am also screwed still, since I have not finished all my homework yet. HeCK the homework lar. Heez..

Gonna miss him and Sparky super loads. Sianz, why cant Sparky come with us on the trip. Hope she will be okie in the pet hotel. Take care to him and her.
Smile Always 5:26 PM


This song is called "Why Can't I?" by Liz Phair. Quite nice and cool. It actually tells you about how a girl feels when she meets the one she loves no matter what the situation is like.

Well I guess I haven been really blogging properly. Reason is simple, it is because I have been so busy Christmas shopping with my family. Yea my homework is still stagnant at a particular spot. There is no progress in the work pile. So screwed, wonder how to enjoy the trip with all these homework breathing down my neck. ARggh!! Stupid homework. Wonder what makes the tutors think that we are able to complete all the work load that they have given us by the first day of school. I mean don't they actually realise that we too need to relax and would rather use our holidays to relax or work to earn extra cash? Really you know, you would think that the tutors too do not have a teenage life like us. It is like they are practically cramming our holidays with loads of work so that we can actually catch up with the syllubus next year. Yea true that they are worried about our 'A' levels next year, but well after the first year of stress, shouldn't they at least let us relax? I mean they have already taken up an entire half of our December holidays le for the extra lessons and lectures. So why cant they just let us off for the rest of the holidays instead?

Well, forget it. I am going to just try my best to complete them. At least I did attempt them.
Smile Always 11:48 PM


is hanging in the air. Still stuck with the same amount, Manz. Can I skip the first week of school to finish them up?

Anyways, Christmas is coming le. Wheee.. Hahas.. Jingle bells jingle bells jingle all the way............................ Ho Ho Ho..

Hahax
Smile Always 4:29 PM


Wheee... He is coming back liaoz. WHee.. so looking forward to the very moment his plane touches down at 11pm. Hmm but my dad also coming home the same time he is. **wonder if I can meet him** Nah dun think so. XD.

Really hoping that he can come out this Saturday and go last minute X'mas shopping with me before I leave for Thailand next week. Really hoping that he can.
Smile Always 5:44 PM


Received an sms from Shaun earlier this evening. Manx, 2S01 has a new GP teacher and I really hope that he is not MR A.Pang. Really really hoping it is not him. This teacher has managed to make my life miserable once more by coming up with more GP homework. He just added on to the stress in my life. I think I just try to do as much as I can. Arrgh!! If not I am seriously considering telling the teacher that I did not receive the Shaun's message by saying that I sent my handphone for servicing. I heCk liaox. Hahax. Hmm but on the other hand, mux we really complete all the homework? -sobz-

Today is the last night alone without hearing from him le. He will be back tomorrow!! Whee~~~ So happy and so anticipating the moment he calls. Really missing him like mad here. **Time go by faster k?**
Smile Always 8:38 PM


Hmm still have about 3 more days before he comes back to Singapore. Really looking forward to that day.

Today I had another nightmare, or rather it was this morning. I dreamt that outside my room was infested with loads of creepy crawlies and snakes wanting to come in. I tried to get them away without going outside myself but my younger sister went outside and was instead the 'meal' for the snake. She ran into the house to escape from the snake but then the snake instead went for my dog who was outside in a crate. Manx. I HATE NIGHTMARES!! Especially all these creepy crawlies and so scary ones. Furthermore dunno why all my nightmares involve my dog. Hahax. Hmm think the nightmare started because of the presence of the lizard I heard before I went to bed. Guess I should note not to sleep after hearing the crackle of the lizard. Hahas.

When I woke up the first thing I wanted to do was call him. But I remembered he is in Vietnam. -sobz- Never mind.. it is just a dream anyway right?

Hope there will be no more nightmares for me again tonight.
Smile Always 7:45 PM


He is now I guess about 30000 feet in the sky le ba. Manx, am really missing him liaoz. Just hope he comes back safely. Hahax.. Paranoid? Dun think so. XD Hope he enjoys his trip to Vietnam though.

Finally finish all Chemistry homework le. Hip Hooray for Manda. Muwahahhahaha
Smile Always 6:41 PM


Manx, tomorrow Jensen is going to Vietnam to meet his dad who is working there; can't see him before he goes for his trip to Vietnam since I am more or less grounded and that he has his council to deal with. Just hoping that he will have a safe trip tomorrow. Missing him loads right now. -sobz-
Smile Always 12:43 PM


Something is really wrong with my computer. I cannot access to my blog. Arrggh! Is it my computer alone? Hmm, I wonder what is wrong..
Smile Always 10:52 AM


Whee.. Am so glad that I was able to meet up with my mates today. We had a spiffy good time trying out clothes and just being with each other.

Supposed to meet Meizhen at 10 30 hr at the Kovan control station but she was late 10 mins while Shi Ting who was to meet us at 11 am outside BreadTalk at Plaza Singapura, was late about 14 mins according to my watch. Hahax. Hmm think next time I should be late instead of early. Hahahaxx..

Went down to the MacDonald's House, and headed for the This Fashion. Tried out only one shirt and fell in love with it, so I ended up buying it (it cost $9). Ting bought a black shirt that looks really good on her while, Mz bought a shirt after so much decision. She tried about 20 shirts before finally deciding the shirt to buy. Hahas, while me and Ting be her clothes rack. Hahax.. It is fun lor though.

Later we had lunch at Long John's Sliver and I think I kinda got cheated instead. Arrggh!! But never mind, I had friends with me and that is what that matters. Hee.. Later we headed back to Plaza Singapura, window shopped for a while till like 3pm? before heading towards Orchard Road belt. Went into a departmental store and just browse through the clothes there. Found a couple of nice prom dresses there but lazy to try them on. Haha.. Furthermore we went to the Toy's Section of the store and just basically be a kid again. Whee.. Big Babys :P

Left that store at about 4pm? and went to Centrepoint. But our feet hurt and Mz & Ting need to go to Toa Payoh while I needed to pass the CDs that Shaun asked me to Jensen. Wonder why Shaun cant wait till the school reopens. Anyways I am really Missing you gals liaos.. Thanks for the shopping and the wonderful time together. Best Friends always!!

I guess passing the CDs to Jensen was a rather silly thing as he is NOW hooked on the shows liaoz. Diaoz.. rite? OI!! Jensen if you are reading this, Do not watch the show liaoz lar. Haha.. Go start with your work and yea I know, I will too okie? Anyways, enjoy the anime.. haha.. contradicting again.. XD
Smile Always 8:02 PM


HeCk ar, I dunno what to write for the title of this blog.

Tomorrow will be meeting my two buddies from my secondary school for a little shopping spree, as we haven't meet in a long while le and plus one of them needed to to buy some New Year clothes (though you have to admit that is really early). For me all I want to do is to chill out with them and catch up with the good old times. He maybe coming along too after his council with us on the shopping spree, hope he does not get bored with a bunch of gals checking out the price tags on the clothes and with us trying them out. Hahax.

Well, today was the same old same old. Again I did not do my holiday homework but I will get to them the moment I finish my blogging here. What can I say? I am super easily distracted.

However there is one thing though that I must get off my chest, is the thing that he told me earlier on msn. Somehow, I can be sure that I was not mad or angry at him but rather I felt as if he just betrayed me. I know that he did not mean it but I tend to feel like maybe he should be punished, yet I do not know how to do it. Furthermore, I felt like he did not need to be punished. Arrgh!! At least he told me rather than me finding out that he did it to me. On the other hand, it was because of council that he had....... Well never mind, I guess I have already forgiven him.
Smile Always 8:36 PM


Whee.. today was the last day of the OGL camp! After a whole 3 days of him in school and not being able to talk to him much, I could finally see him today. Straight after his debriefing of the camp, he came over to my place just to accompany me till about 6 30pm. Am so happy, could not be more happier in my life. I was just so cool lar to see him today but then I did not realise that his attire would actually be the one that brightens up my day. Hahax. He wore a black councilor shirt and a pair of navy blue track pants and also carrying his big bag of clothes and stuff. You know I think many of you would have mistaken him for a construction worker or some contractor after you looked at him. B'cause that was what I had thought the moment I saw him standing at my doorstep. Well you cannot blame me since the place I am staying is still has some problems with this and that. Hee..

Anyways, was just so happy to see him today. Guess it will be the only time I can see him before he goes for his Hanoi trip on the 8th Dec to meet his father there while I will be going to Thailand on the 21st Dec.

Another period of missing him before the school reopens.
Smile Always 9:31 PM


Still the same ole same ole, doing nothing and just wasting away. Need activity and the motivation to start mugging my holiday homework.

Seems like no one is online these days, wonder why. ?? ** Thinking **
Smile Always 3:07 PM



This morning at about 12am, Jensen and I had an hour long conversation before he leaves for his camp. Somehow it is like everytime we start to have any disputes, we tend to be closer to each other. I really wished that this morning's conversation would never end since I was for once able to tell him just how much he means to me and not the me that he thought does not need him. And you know what, I think he has managed to change me; when I told him everything about how I felt, he said "The Amanda I know would never have said this in the past few months." Maybe it is because I have really realised that I cannot be without him. Somehow I like this change in me, the feelings that I am feeling seems real for the first time.

He matters. This time, I am going to never letting go at all, I am going to hold on tight to him. I guess this is what they call LOVE.
Smile Always 2:25 PM