manda the lover passenger of love going round but not getting anywhere Novemeber 3rd
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Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion.
Javan


love is infinite
only you yourself know what to love


good grades for my A levels
a job
makeover
to be happy
for everyone i know to be happy
new handphone

Manx. I jus realised that I am staying with two bitches. First my lil' sis is just throwing her weight around like she is the damm empress dowager. Next my big sis is jus basically bitching around sying all kinds of crap and the lil' one is learning the bitchiness from the big one. Manx.. wth.. Hate their bitchiness.. God help me..
Smile Always 5:41 PM


am jus feeling like life is meaningless..
Smile Always 10:59 PM


SLO interview today to me was a disaster. I could answer but then I kinda repeated my answers again and again. I have no idea what I was talking about. I think I was faking the answers, I mean look at me.. I sure do not think that I am what I said I am to be. And next I am a very bad person. I gossiped bad about others. Sobz.. I know that this is wrong but I just cannot stop myself from putting my 2 cents worth about the view of other people. I SHOULD really stop gossiping about other people behind their backs.

I am so mean. I should change the way I think. I should not think to much too right?

Arrrgh, I am confused! What should I have done? Manx..

I wan2 change blogskin again. I want to change my behaviour now. I want to be more open. I want to strive to do well. I want!!!
Smile Always 6:05 PM


Am just being super piggy, slept the whole day yesterday and now am not in the mood to do my homework. Just wasting precious time. No wonder my results are like this. Haiz..
Smile Always 12:04 PM


Am so disappointed with the results that I have obtained from the common test, and well I guess it is my fault. I did not really put in effort into focusing to do well for the papers. All of them are so disappointing. Am not taking S papers anymore becauz I really want to spend more time on the main 4 core papers instead and see if I can obtain the 4 A's that I aim for.

I know some may say that I am talking rubbish as to the disappointing results. But wait till you see them -
@ Maths B
@ Biology C
@ Chemistry E
@ Physics Ao

I guess it is just not the grades that I want and hope to achieve. This common test now has become my wake-up call that I cannot do well for my A' levels with the kind of standard that I went with during the common test. (Manda apologises to herself / hits herself on her head)

Really wish that I can just burn the common test results. But it is time to move on and not dwell on this common test. Still have common test 2!!! GAMBATTE, everyone!! Do not give up!! Jia you!!
Smile Always 8:35 PM


Today is Valentine's Day!! This means roses, chocolates, gifts and loads of wonderful time spent with your love ones, not just your partner, but also your friends and family. It is also known as international friendship week!! I love today!!! Happie Valentine's Day to all!!! Muackz!!!

Dear, thanks for your gifts! Especially the ones that U realli surprised me with!!! Muackz to u too.. Wheeeeeeeeeeeee...

Muhahahhaa!! I am so happiE!!!!
Smile Always 8:16 PM


Yesterday went to Yong Tao's house after school for steamboat gathering with the class. Mr Koh aka Adrian went with us too although there were to be another 3 more teachers to go too. But anyways we had loads of fun, chatting, eating and watching television programme too. After the steamboat the whole class and Mr Koh went inside to sing Karaoke. Hahas.. Oh ya Yong Tao's dad offered red wine to the class, and I have to say that the wine is nice - I had 2 glasses of wine. It taste nicer than the wine that my dad likes. It is sweet and less dry. (My dad likes his red wine to be on the drier side instead). Too bad I have to leave early. Jensen left with me too halfway through the karaoke. After that I just went to the park near my home and took a realli late night stroll with Jensen. Then I went home. XD

*details of the stroll is confidential. Onli to be read by the addresse. XD

I really enjoyed the gathering with the class. S1 rockz!! I love my class!!
Smile Always 7:31 PM


Think I have already managed to mess up the chances of me getting a good passable grade for each subject. My chemistry, though I had spent alot of time studying for it, was really a disaster. I could not do a single question because I got confused and could not really understand what the question was asking for. Physics, this too another one that is catastrophic. I mixed up the formulae for Electric Field. All of the formulae. It was like I could not differentiate which formula is the electric force and which is the electic field strength. At least I am thankful for knowing my biology facts and managed to answer at least 90% of the paper. But the question is whether my answers are correct not. To summarise everything in this paragraph, it simply means that I am so going to screw up this common test obtaining low grades if I do pass that is.

Okay, forget it, I am not going to talk about the common test anymore. It is over. Until I get my results.

After the Biology theory paper, had biology makeup practical. Had to investigate the number of worms affecting the rate of respiration. WORMS!!!.. Arrgh.. they are creepy crawlies and there is not other description for them. And to think I told Raymond before that I hope it is not creepy crawlies. At least I do not have to handle them by hand - used forceps. But they still give me the jitters. I could feel like they are all over me even if there are not. I do not mind them not moving in the bottle used to contain them. But once they got excited and started wriggling about. Oh please, take them far far away from me immediately. But for the sake of Biology practical.. Guess I cant right? If not what am I going to use to do the experiment. Urgh..

Right now am just doing nothing, practically everyone is out celebrating Yu's birthday and also the end of the exams. Jus too bad that I could not go. No one online to chat with me also. Hahas.. lame excuse.. Forget it I feel like I am talking crap. So I will jus stop now.. Later.
Smile Always 9:02 PM


First day of the common tests and I practically screwed up everything. Firstly the GP paper was really quite a let down in a sense that I was not sure of what I was writing. True that I may have all the facts or most of the facts in but somehow I feel as if I did not make any sense at all while writing the essay. Oh and by the way the Question is on globalisation " GLOBALISATION IS A DOUBLE-EDGED SWORD. DISCUSS " Talk about cool here. This is not really my forte and yet I went ahead to attempt this question. I could actually attempt the others but because I wanted to have a longer essay to hand in, hence this. I know, no use lammenting about this right? Afterall there are other subjects out there that I have to grasp the concept first. Maths was also a let-down, I could not do the Maclaurin's Series Qn at all and my permutations & combinations was as bad as ever. To let you in on something, I was never, I repeat, never good at P&C!! So it was already a fighting a losing battle.

Another thing is that I just read the sample essays given to us last year to prepare us for the promotional examinations and I realise that their English grammer is superb, I really want to write good english like them. So now I am going to use perfect english and eliminate all the "lar's" and "lor's" and "hmm's" and also not forgetting the "le's". If really cannot help it altogether at least reduce their appearance on the screen.

Think I have said my piece and so I bid you a good day and farewell. Am not going online to blog until this common tests is over. Now the core science subjects are the priorities!! Good luck to all having exams!!
Smile Always 11:58 PM


I am too demanding le. This I knw. I am too selfish. This I knw too. I am lonely without you. Help me. I feel that you are doubting me. Why? I feel like I am always making life hard for you.

U ask of me to be Fearless. Fearless.. Who has this ability to be fearless in the face of problems of the heart? WHo? I am not that fearless girl. I was frighten and I still me still frighten. It is not I..

Am I still? Or not? I guess I am still wishing for a romance so beautiful that it will become like the fairytales so beautiful and pure...
Smile Always 10:03 PM


Why is it that there is no chance of a guy knowing what his girlfriend want even if she does not say it out right? I mean there are things that a girl does not want to burden her guy with. I dunno why am I talking about all these things right now but I just feel like there is a kind of communication breakdown between each other. Maybe everything will be better if the guy could actually read the girls' mind. (no, that will be too darn creepy)

All that I wanted was for more time to spend with him, and I thought that I could. But I was wrong! Instead of having more time, there is in fact less time. Not much time spent with him and not much communication between the both of us. This stinks especially if there is this misunderstanding somewhere. Yes, I am taking S paper but still it is not really confirmed until I pass my Biology common test with the desirable grade; though he does not have Biology tutorials now, but there is like a mis-matched timing between us. Take today for example, when I am having Bio lecture, he is in the council room resting and there is really no interaction since I am having lessons and him his free break (and yes again, he is an envy since he has more break than I combined). Then when I am having lunch, he is still in the council room resting nursing a headache. When he finally comes down to meet me, I am too busy running errands for my media CCA; collecting the cash for the OG photos.

U see there is really not much interaction. PE was the same, by the time PE was over, I did stretching and he ended up playing floorball and soccer. What was I to do? Sit there and wait for him to finish playing his game? Others may say "yea that was what you should have done instead of walking out of the school with Justine, Shaoting, Raymond and Colin." True that I should have waited but.... oh never mind, it is over anyways.

Tired of all these mis-matched timing!! Just wishing for a time of me and him alone. Jus us and no one else.. somehow I think it will not happen.

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Back to the unfathomable...

I am not sure about other girls but this is me and what I want from a guy: (onli if u are super close to me and I mean super super close, kaes it is my bf lar)

--> I want your undivided attention, ur utmost attention to whatever I do. Or rather jus shower me with loads of attention!!
--> Critise me if I have done something wrong. Not scold me but tell me where I have gone wrong in terms of my attitude etc. Jus be honest with me..
--> Pamper me!! Super important!! No matter what mux pamper me. And I dun mean $$ kind of pamper. U go figure urself
--> Love me for who I am not what I am. Super Important too!! dun expect me to change to suit u k?
--> At times SURPRISE me!!! Do not always give me the same old routine.
--> Hug me!! I LOVE HUGS!!
--> Tolerate my mood swings and outbursts (if any)
--> So much more.. any other ppl wan2 fill in/contribute to this list?? (tags can?)

Yea so guess this is it ba. If still have somemore I will fill in here.

Guys so this is a guide k? Not jus for me. I know that you have received mail on pampering girls and all that but this is the main thing k? Girls if I'm wrong tell me k?
Smile Always 8:45 PM